“Mm…” Hope murmured as she took in that information.
Every time Lumi had returned from her suicide missions, she’d always rushed to be the first to meet her and bring her to the repair bath-docks.
She’d done her best to get Lumi to let go of her guilt and self-hatred, and that had worked to some extent. But even she could only do so much. After all, she hadn’t really been there at the Battle of Coruscant. Never known what it was like to face such impossibly overwhelming numbers.
But let it never be said that Hope didn’t try.
“I’m guessing Lumi never told you about what exactly happened for the Admiralty to confine her to base, huh?”
Seeing a shake of the head, Hope explained, her gaze becoming distant as she recalled the events of years past.
“It was about three years ago. Lumi was coming back from another suicide mission of hers. She tried to hide it on the way back to Zephyr Station, but…her central AI was all but screaming at us that…that…”
Hope took a shaky breath, remembering how her fear had skyrocketed that day upon hearing the AI’s alarmed report. “Lumi…was on the verge of critical hull integrity failure. I brought her to the repair docks as soon as I could.”
That had been the only day everyone had seen her in terrified tears, cradling the barely-conscious Lumi in her arms to the repair baths.
“After she was healed up, Admiral Green chewed her out hard. That was when the Admiralty unanimously decided to have Lumi confined to base. So that was it.”
Hope calmed herself the best she could, giving Astrid a slightly sad smile. “I’ll admit, at that time I was so scared. I…I didn’t want to lose her. My beloved sister…the Admiralty thanked me personally. They said that if I hadn’t rushed to the baths, she would have…”
The usually cheerful shipgirl couldn’t finish that sentence. But even so, her meaning was known.
Astrid nodded as she listened to Hope’s statement. She was quite glad to hear Hope explain things and how she had saved Lumi. “I see,” Astrid replied. “That explains why she was so urgently sent to me. You did the right thing, Hope, and I’m glad that you succeeded in saving her that time.” It’s clear that Astrid had more than a hint of relief in her voice at Hope’s saving of Lumi. The loss of life was a terrible thing for Astrid, one to be avoided at any opportunity.
At hearing Astrid’s reassurance, Hope smiled, only more happily this time.
“Thank you. Lumi sulked and moped for a few days in her quarters afterwards, let me tell you. I was really just about the only one she didn’t immediately shout at when entering.”
Not that Lumi had continued such overt hostility all the time, of course. Hope remembered the time when she’d managed to convince her sister to share a drink with her in the starbase’s cafeteria, which was where that cherished holopic in her locket had come from.
And like Lumi had told Astrid previously, there were the times where she’d tried to seek help from counselors, which Hope had attended as well.
A sudden thought struck Hope, and she looked to Astrid, hands laced together again.
“Um, miss Astrid, if it’s not too much trouble, can I ask you for a bit of advice? I…want to know how I can really get through to Lumi.”
Hope began blushing with a lovestruck smile, averting her gaze as her mind concocted images of herself and Lumi in various affectionate situations.
“She’s so headstrong, enduring her guilt and suffering alone for so long…but I want my sister to know I’m always there for her. No matter what, she’ll never be alone.”